I feel it creep in

here we go again

Didn't we bury and forget?

pretty sure we did a factory reset

Well, here it is

an unwelcomed visitor,

to torment and to haunt

to bless me with fear and panic

wonder which will be greater this time,

numbness, 3am crying in the sheets,

or the grief that comes with trying to hide it

It is a looming monster

I am aware of its existence,

but I swear I had it in control

this time it feels bigger, stronger

I can feel it's hunger

longing to consume me

helpless, drained, too tired to fight

so I lay still and wait for my fate

my only hope is that this time

I will be stronger than it

because if I don't then

Bye bye me